A very little chihuahua puppy that visited yesterday. They are dogs that seek warm pockets and nooks to burrow into and fall asleep. This little one cozied herself into my elbow's crook. She was so little and sweet, with her tiny nose, big eyes, and soft little paws. It's easy to want to take in little puppies. They are helpless and adorable, like a newborn baby. Feelings of affection and attachment come on powerfully, and you start talking about your desire to keep the little thing. In your mind, you make the connections and you see how simple the transition would be. The dog is so tiny, for example, that you'd be able to take it with you everywhere, eliminating the need for a daily dog walker. You could go on vacations with the pup, since she fits so easily into a carry on. She wouldn't be a strain on your budget, since her stomach are so small. That sort of thing. But then cold reality sets in. You wake up from the dream, and rational thought invades your mind in sobering waves, creating a strong undertoe that trips your Samaritan resolve, short circuits your canine caring instinct, and slaps you in the face. Visions of carrying around a furry animal in your pocket begin to fade. I look at the pictures I took of the little light brown fur ball with white face markings. At least I have the pictures.
Monday, March 10, 2014
Sunday, March 9, 2014
3.9.14
| Market St., Frisco |
| Greg, who knows |
| ruck satchel |
| Coit Tower there |
| there is Frisco |
| the Church in N. Beach |
| Zeotrope building |
San Francisco was beautiful yesterday evening. The air was warm and windless, the atmosphere
light, cheerful, and festive.
People were out enjoying themselves in a natural way. I did not feel tension in the air, nor did I
feel the threat of misfortune. I felt I
was living in the presence of perfection - a vivid fullness, a gently heightened
color tone. Yes, a treat for all of my
senses. Though I was alone, a solitary
rider weaving quietly through the streets of North Beach, Russian hill, and the
financial district, I could not ignore the pulsing romance of the night. It was in the air I breathed, filling
restaurants, strolling the sidewalks. It
lived in the cars and buses that drove by, and in the color and shine of
objects as light reflected off their surfaces.
All these together. I felt pain
in my heart that I could not be a part of it, and that I wasted many
opportunities in life that will ripple with sadness into my future. But I also felt grateful that I was still
alive, still just willing to live a little bit, and possessed just enough sensitivity to be
able to see and recognize the beauty and truth of eternal moments in time when
they come.
Thursday, March 6, 2014
3.6.14
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
2.28.14
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